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You never thought how unlucky i am recently. As if all the bad things gotta do with me. Hei, get out of my way please-just leave me alone whatever devils, monsters. Has anyone cast spells on me. Lady luck, guardian angels, where are you?

deng….really deng

how could i got into 2 troubles in a night time?

shit la!

Ok, that’s the case. S Mun came from spore to meet her….arhmm….and us. As i have transport here, i became the driver for the day. Never in my life, anyone question my driving skill-except for tc-the one and only.

So, after a steamboat dinner at OMC at a place near UTM, we went strolling around. Then HM wated to withdraw money. There we go to the nearest cash machine. I went to withdraw as well.

Everything just fine, as on the way i reverse my car……….i could feel my car lifted a few centimetres. SHIT!

I look around to check if the owner is around.

SHIT SHIT ! i’m cought in the act!- no escapes

i just went out of the car and nego.

….how? send for repair la? i’ll pay for it k? - i offered

"the shop is not open now, and i’m not free" he said

then i changed the whole nego blaming him for parking too near…haha and acted poor to gain sympathy.

Tried hard to compensate less.

then the man asked " how much i could pay and he knows that i’m a student"

I offered rm 30.

He asked for rm 50. DEAL!

The scratch was quite bad, moreover his myvi bumper is pvc not steel. repaint just wont do.

There gone my money that i just drew out. sigh.
i did all the talking
As i don’t want to spoil the atmosphere i have no choice but to act nothing and pretended. In fact, ARRRRRRRR………my car!!! my money!!!!! i’m not left with lots k. 50 means lots to me here. There are lots of things that i still NEED to buy. Fine, 50 might not make any difference. i convinced myself. My patrol money for at least 10 days leh!!!

fine fine fine

then i send  2 frens home as they have to prepare for test the next morning

" any where else that you guys wanna go" i asked as a driver.
" go for karaooke!" HM suggested. fully agreed by the k lover SM
ok….just go for it then. After all there’s no curfew in the fasting month of Ramadhan.

As we happily drove to CS in JB which i seldom go. Btw i never go out this late n i even seldom go out of skudai-see how good gurl i am. My dad will be shouting at me if he know this.

As we are driving happily along the smooth, long, wide road, there’s a sudden traffic jam.??? puzzled? then only we realised it’s a road block. I’m perfectly sure that my licience as well as my road tax is valid and we have our seat belts on. There shouldn’t be any problem.

Then, the traffic police looked at my car registration no, and directed us TO THE SIDE!! SHIT!
$ %*$&%^&(%*^%(&*
#$&%$&(%^#@$%#%&^*)%^ V&%F^$%$^%&

waited for quite some time at the corner of the road. shit! what’s the problem?

" miss show me your licience" -police

i innocently handed him mine.

" miss do you know that you had been driving 101km/h along that ???? road?"-police

"?????? i thought the that is a highway? " i replied

"nope. ok. now you were given 2 choices it’s either i send the summons to your place or i issue one now?"-police

??? still blur, didn’t really know how o handle this man, it’s ,y first time!
What the heck la, such long, wide road- how could the speed limit be 80.. i could see no one follow the speed!! f&(*&%)%^&*%…..arrrrrrrrrrrr

"could i have another option sir" i asked

"the bill will cos you rm 300, if you pay on time there will be a 10% reduction". -police

FUCK IT!!!!! really wanted to scream out loud. But luckily i manage to remain calm.

we keep on repeating the conversation. hei!!! I REALLY WANTED TO BRIBE HIM LEH!!!
but i already hinted- i asked for the 3rd option.or both of us never get each other’s hints?

hei i’m really bad in this. Previously is Jovean who did all the negotiation for his case i just lend a helping hand, just acted to be his sick friend. I dont’ know does it works k.

HOW? HOW I OFFER HIM ? HOW TO INVITE A POLICE OFFICER FOR COFFEE??

WHAT SHOULD I SAY??? WHAT ELSE COULD I SAY?

CAN I BRIBE YOU? - I  hope it’s not an offence to say that. Then i’ll say that out loud at the begining.

THE ATMOSPHERE SUDDENLY FREEZED! NO ONE SAYS A WORD FROM BEHIND ME FROM MY SIDE FROM INSIDE AND OUT OF THE CAR.

As me and the policeman dont know wat to say, the negotiation ended that he’ll send me the summons. TO MY HOME LEH!!!

SHIT SHIT SHIT- DAD IS SURE TO FIND OUT LIAO!
sure to be scolded. Previusly he even forbid me from working just a few days in the computer fair at CS for he is worried bout my safety. Now, I’m going CS for karaoke at about 1 am. I felt terribly sorry. Anyway i’m still a good girl. i felt terribly guilty.

After reaching CS, we were informed that NEWAY is closing at 3 am which is 2 hours to go and the rate is rm 22 per person. They think it’s too expensive and not worth their money, so the plan cancelled!!!!

PLAN CANCELLED! hei there’s nothing to do here! what do you guys wanna do then?
i’m paying rm 300 for tonight leh. doing nothing?

DAMN IT!!!!AT LEAST DO SOMETHING FUN LAR…MAKE MY MONEY MORE WORTH IT!!!

ok. someone suggested for a movie. it’s already about 1am - no more show liao.
so just opt for the nearest show la.

we cant for HM is afraid of scary movies-i’m really fucked up d, i din show didn’t mean i have no feelings k…..i just dont want to make the situation worst!

maybe that’s what i’d learn in UTM - hiding ur true feelings is essential here.

damn tired, really damn tired.
That’s not me! where is the old ME!

SHIT! WHY AM I PAYING 300 BUCKS TO BE HERE LEH! isint it better for me to spend on the Rem Koolhas book and the Home Design book that i wanted to buy so much previously but didn’t do so. Isn’t it better to change my bulky, heavy monitor to an LCD monitor so that i dont have to carry it all the way up to the forth-floor and to the store room everytime to clear room? Though it is not enough for a new handphone which mine really need a change, i’m saving my way man!- that 300 means a lot to me.

i konw i can blame no one for i’m the one who is driving. But at least make the money more worth it la.

we ended up watching skin walker - no prejudice - it’s sucks. The director is terrible at taking angles, even i can tell it’s such a low cost production man.

so the whole night ended up SUCKS!
we event witnessed an accident on the way bac! Nothing go smooth that day!!!

My dad hasn’t find out yet!

somehow feeling lonely again. Maybe i’m staying in a single room, acting too independent, refusing to ask ppl out - to take the move, relunctant to work-though have lots….and more.
i’m not sure or maybe it’s been too long i din go home. "missing home? " U don’t have to ask me that. Definitely i am. That’s the problem here- UTM is just too bored to stay. Johor might be fun but just too dangerous here. The security is sucks!

I’m so homesick with just a month away from home, wonder how my sis doing there. Really miss her!!! Did call her dat day. Aiya, me and my sis is not those emo type so she’ll never opens up. All she tell me is "jusl like that lot". But i can truly understand her desire to be home. After all those things that happpened to her there, she got to take it on her own it will be really hard for me. I’ll definitely broke down and just pack my luggage to our home sweet home. I know there are things that you wanna gain in life. Gambate! i’m proud to have such tough sis like you. Never thought you could be such person.

Hope you’ll enjoy working there more

everyone wonders why i love malacca so much. u won’t know if you have not been there before.
if u are really going there make sure you get to Jonker Street. There you’ll get everything u are looking for.
Maybe not for everyone, but it does for me and my friends. I never thought that i’ll fall in love with this place.
Still can recall how i resist to have our studio site visit to Malacca in my first year- 3 years ago.
As our lecturer uses his power, it leave me no choice. Then only i get to know this hidden treasure.
This place gathered all the most creative people in Malaysia. The town itself is an art piece.
The place is well preserved with it’s history and all the old shop houses. You could trace back the past when you are there.
The feeling of shopping in an ancient town is great. The place demonstrate it’s age by the cracks, the stain, the material and
the architecture of the building. The place is revived by the assemblage of artists. Be there you’ll get to see lots of interesting things.
This time we found a new place really cool-to get into the place you need to go through a narrow passage surrounded by creepy plants. The mysterious
feeling that it created compel our curiousity. The place is great-reminisence of the olden days.
It’s the third time of me there-since the trip. I’ll be bac next sem. If you are there make sure try out the nyonya durian cendol, curry, peranakan food,
ikan bakar ……find out more yourself.

Just went to this place yesterday- 22aug. Another reason why i love this small town is the people here are so nice and friendly.
Thanx to the Tourist Police for helping me when my car battery is exhausted due to me forgot to switch off the light- absent minded! again-sigh
The place is cool, trust me- small town, friendly people, delicious delicacy,creativity is in the air there and et cetera.

Recently my friends and i went to Kelantan to do our project. All of us tought we would
have a great time there. As we are enjoying Kelantan food,scenic sceneries and the condo which has
a swimming pool and air conditioner in every room, there came this so called "DOVE BEATLE".
Make sure you guys are aware of this bug. It’s also known as Trailer bug as it will make u
your skin sore and have pus along the it’s trail.

I never thought that all these were cause by these tiny little bug with size merely bigger than
an ant. Do not underestimate this bug as it is 7 times more poisonous than cobra.Those who had
never came across this bug will never know as this bug only appear after the paddy harvesting season.
Me myself thought i got rashes from being under the sun all the time. Thought it’s some skin desease, never
thought that those bugs which come into our condo every night contributes to all these scars
that i’ll have!arrr!!

So beware of this bug when u go to places that grow paddy or anything similar. At the moment there’s no
way to stop or kill this bug. This bug is also found in Kedah and USM (penang)! Many students were attacked
by it.

PS: STUPID bug!!! spoil my mood and leave me scars!! aaaaarrrrr!
    I HATE IT!! MAKE SURE U KILL EVERY SINGLE DOVE BEATLE THAT U ENCOUNTER! KILL THEM!
     KILL THEM ALL!!WAT A BIRTHDAY GIFT…SIGH………………..

c that’s the result of it….sigh….it leaves me scars

Self-satisfaction???

what is satisfaction to everyone? Are you satisfy with what you have or had done?
Is satisfaction = happiness? Is it something we will only felt towards the end of life?
How come i never get satisfied with everything i do? Is it my expectation is too high to be reach?
If so. How could anyone expect less from themselves? Who will aim low when there’s many above?

Recent Favourite!!!
Like the music very much. Lyrics also not bad.
LOVE IS BLIND!!! haha

Artist: Foundations
Song: Build Me Up, Buttercup
Album: 

[Chorus:]
Why do you build me up (build me up)
Buttercup baby
Just to let me down
And mess me around?
And then, worst of all (worst of all)
You never call, baby
When you say you will
But I love you still
I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darling
You know that I have from the start
So build me up, buttercup
Don’t break my heart

"I’ll be over at ten"
You tell me time and again
But you’re late
I wait around, and then
I run to the store
I can’t take anymore
It’s not you
You let me down again

(Hey, hey, hey)
Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey)
A little time, and I’ll make you happy
I’ll be home
I’ll be beside the phone
Waiting for you

[Repeat chorus]

To you, I’m a toy
But I could be the boy
You adore
If you just let me know
And, though you’re untrue
I’m attracted to you
All the more
Why do you treat me so?

(Hey, hey, hey)
Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey)
A little time, and I’ll make you happy
I’ll be home
I’ll be beside the phone
Waiting for you

[Repeat chorus]

 
Lyrics for: Silence Is Golden
 
Oh, don’t it hurt deep inside
To see someone do something to her
Oh, don’t it pain to see someone cry
Oh, especially when someone is her

Silence is golden, but my eyes still see
Silence is golden, golden
But my eyes still see

Talking is cheap, people follow like sheep
Even though there is nowhere to go
How could she tell, he deceived her so well
Pity, she’ll be the last one to know

Silence is golden, but my eyes still see
Silence is golden, golden
But my eyes still see

How many times will she fall for his line
Should I tell her or should I keep cool
And if I tried, I know she’ll say I lied
Mind your business, don’t hurt her, you fool

Silence is golden, but my eyes still see
Silence is golden, golden
But my eyes still see
But my eyes still see
But my eyes still see

    wat is planning? i just know that every time before i fall asleep i’ll plan my schedule. Yeah i’ve got a great schedule to follow. A schedule which not just focus on what kinda work i have to finish also time for rest, meal……But things rarely go according to plan!    
    Being an emotional person is hard to stick to plan. I know what i need to settle that particular time of day but somehow i just resist to do it. In the end, i ended up doing nothing!Here i am writing these blog. I had been procrastinating since 3 hours ago! how can i make myself more discipline? Can i ignore my feeling and just do what i should do?  That is really hard for me man! But i’ll try.
    I want to live a normal life! i dont wanna stay awake every night!i wanna sleep!I dont wanna sleep at 9am anymore!I want a normal breakfast not as a "supper"! I dont wanna REDO!!!!! For your information i have been working on my major project more than a month. Since i had hand in rubbish i need to redo! I have to redo not for the design but for the graphic! Wat la! I’m bored of redoing the same thing looking, refining, rendering, touching, displaying the same thing on my computer already! Even my computer is not happy-it’s getting slower each day!

this article might not make any sense, i just wanna express my feelings..somehow words just aint enough for that it’s too complicated!

At this moment,all i could say is nervous, stress,messy,unorganized. That’s my feeling at the moment…..(SUBMISSION ON THIS FRIDAY!)I had never felt this nervous before not even in my stpm. As time flies, my submissionis getting nearer and of course i knew i just cant finish in time…sigh….if i could i wouldnt be in such a condition…sob.

Autocad is damn slow…sigh…Now only i realise how easy manual is although i’m not good in it. So is using computer…wat am i good in le? nothing lo. i just dont know what had happened to me? where had all my self-confidence, spirit….. all still stuck in ipoh? i’m just like living in a souless body in utm…sigh

maybe i dint put enough effort, or in fact i had never really put effort in it at all. am i really like architecture. but the fact is i never plan to be an architect? dilemma!should i or should i not continue? if i dont where will i be? what should i do? i’m totally lost!i just hate who i am now…..so useless…sigh

written just to do sthing else other than my studio work….sigh…pls mind my eng. for it had been too long i last wrote.